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day 40 – go

In thoughts on things on September 30, 2011 at 4:30 pm

i’m going to use this image to stir up desire to GO, and here are some of the places i want to go soon:

beaufort (the off season is beautiful and quiet)

boone (the best part of year in that town)

the state farmer’s market again



okay but really Lebanon, Israel, England, Wales, Italy, Greece, Sweden

that’s a good start.


day 39 – the beauty of failure

In thoughts on God, thoughts on me on September 30, 2011 at 4:09 pm

oh man.  failure.

especially difficult for those of us who try really hard to do things right.

and although it’s always disheartening to find myself there, the Lord allows me to see it the way He does:  a step in the right direction.

failing is the ultimate “i can’t,” – the humbling step that helps me to realize (not just know) that the more i can’t, the more He is able to do in me.

i am incapable. He desires for me to depend on Him like a little weak child.

“Have no fear, little flock, for it is your Father’s good pleasure to give you the kingdom.” – Luke 12:32

i can glory in my failures because where i am weak, He is made stronger, and He really likes giving me good things.

i sometimes picture God as an Apothecary.

(i know it’s kind of weird but i’m going to flesh the image out anyways)

He grows and cultivates me, pruning the dead parts away,

He waits until He sees I am ready

and uses me for something extraordinary and good.

maybe He uses the crushing against the stone and mortar to be able to use me better,

to trust Him more,

to help others

and to fully depend on Him.


day 38 – eating breakfast(s) sitting down

In thoughts on things on September 29, 2011 at 9:29 am

a couple for you from the queue.

coffee + orange juice

toast with butter (& strawberry jam that i made with friends this summer!)

fried eggs with spinach and tomatoes

a peach for perfection

cereal in annemarie’s bowl

Daily Light

morning light


i need to reinstate ebsd for my life regime style

my mornings are getting away from me 🙂



day 37 – goals that seem like i might never do them

In thoughts on things on September 26, 2011 at 3:06 pm

take dance lessons

(i’d love to try this again.  a fun way to stay fit!  first stop: try contra dancing)


make a – and learn to – compost

(anyone want to lend their carpentry skills to build a bin?)


try a juice fast

(i just watched a documentary on it, and it seems fantastic!  this would be a veggie + fruit juice fast)


read more poetry

(i have a book of civil war poetry, so i’ll start there)


ride a horse

(because we all know i love lord of the rings and secretly want to be Arwen)


act in another play

(because i did it in high school, and it was pretty fun.  but maybe not a christmas cantata)


and take voice lessons again

(because voice lessons, in fact, have always made me really happy)


do something extravagantly and randomly kind for someone i don’t know.

day 36 – sunday music corner

In thoughts on things on September 26, 2011 at 1:21 am

thought of this song this week, and am SO happy to have rediscovered it.

man of the house, anyone?

okay, but i really like this song and i think it’s legitimately good.

and the fact that there’s a unicorn in the video makes it better!

but really, i kind of like the video, too.


any throwback music gems for you guys?

day 35 – marathon weeks + fragments of thoughts

In thoughts on things on September 24, 2011 at 4:45 pm

“runnin around like a chicken with your head cut off” – my gramma

i am very familiar with these weeks.  thankfully, not a lot of them have happened since graduating from college.  not in the traditional sense, anyway.

i think there are different kinds of marathon weeks.  of course there are the weeks where you have no time to do anything but go to sleep and do it all over again the next day, weeks where meals are counted in how many times you can quickly “grab a bite” before the next thing, where every moment is dedicated to something or someone.

and then i think there is a marathon week of the heart.

thankfully my weeks haven’t been too filled up with to the brim work, school, or familial obligations.  just 3 days of working, a little job searching, keeping house, spending time with people, and running errands.  but my heart has felt a bit like a marathon.

-to be satisfied in Jesus alone-

doesn’t that just sound nice?  i read it and it gives me peace, even.  i know it’s possible, i’ve been there before, and His Peace is free.

but sometimes you have those weeks when your heart feels asleep, stale, or dissatisfied.  where meeting with Him is frustrating, grating up against your flesh.  where earth feels more real than heaven.

my head knows the roots, and i know what i need to do, but what i really need and desire is for my heart to have a revelation!

the end of the “i can do it myself” rope is always a great place to be.

day 34 – obsession: farming

In thoughts on me, thoughts on things on September 22, 2011 at 6:35 pm

something i want to invest in, but know very little about.

here’s a very abridged version of why:

it’s sustainable

(you produce food you eat)

you get to see your food from seed, and get to say what goes in the soil

(p.s. i’d like to learn to/try to compost, too!)

it’s fun, though it’s hard work.  but the hard work will make meals sweeter.

i like the farming lifestyle (thanks to boone, nc)

unabridged version to follow

day 33 – writing letters to strangers

In thoughts on me, thoughts on things on September 19, 2011 at 3:06 pm

i really like doing it.

it’s kinda funny to try to write a letter to a stranger, to pick out the things about yourself to share.

to boldly ask them about themselves, and what you might be praying for in their lives.

it’s a nice reminder of the things that really matter to you and about you,

and to make time to reach out to people, even people you don’t know, in a neat way.

long live love and letters!

day 32 – a promise

In thoughts on God on September 18, 2011 at 5:09 pm

This week, Jesus has been telling me and promising me that He’s coming back.

I keep getting that word again and again, in scriptures, in thoughts, in conversation.  At first I thought surely this was because He is coming back soon.  And that could be true, but then I saw it as a personal pursuit of Jesus promising me He is coming back.

This truth is cornerstone to any believer, and it is so easy to know it as a fact or facet of your belief system without ever believing it truly.  Or knowing it but not thinking on it, meditating on what it means for you.

The coming back of the Christ King is literal.  It will happen as He promised while He walked on earth here.  Many of his parables discuss being a good servant in terms of always being ready for the Master to come home.

As a girl looking forward to marriage, I imagine up this preparation in daydreams of a clean estate.  This is not just on the note of cleanliness but on thoroughly being in order.  Things are organized – cups in the cupboard, as well as records, finances, and important documents.  The ground is tilled up and the seeds are planted and watered.  The vines are pruned and the harvest is prepared, whether by preservation or in meals on the table.  It even smells nice.  It is an intentional preparation, and the lamp is always burning in the window anticipating a return.  This anticipation is also in care for the Master, so he will have light no matter what hour he returns.

Not to say our preparation of Him comes in cleanliness of self,  but in intentionality.  Intentionally meeting with Him, believing with assuredness the things that are unseen and with the substance of things hoped for.  Listening for Him.  Talking to Him.  Trusting Him.  Loving him from afar, because “blessed are those who have not seen and yet have believed.”(John 20:29)

It means a lot to me that He’d send me the message Himself, in a way I’d respond and hear.  First I must believe, then I can prepare.  First I must believe, then He can use me, He can tell me things and I will hear them and share them if He tells me to.

I believe the first thing on His mind is returning to come get us – why wouldn’t it be? Like a promised man to a woman, they’re not yet married in full, and He is preparing a place for them to live at his Father’s house.  The chief motivation in His preparing is her, and he listens carefully to his Father, who is the only one who knows when they’re both ready.  When they are, he’ll tell the Son to go get his Bride.

How kind, how loving, how caring it is for Him to help us believe.  He does this for those He loves and intends to use.

What a promise.

I asked my friend after a conversation about His return, “So what do we do now?”  And she said the most simple, and most compelling statement:

“We study and we pray!”

everything else we need comes out of that.

day 31 – a little inspiration

In Uncategorized on September 16, 2011 at 11:15 pm

this is via caroline of branches & light – made my day today